I will try to fix you

A lot of weird things have happened lately, the pencil, the two bad friends, my isolation from other people, things seem to be going backward instead of foreward. I'm always worried now that Erin is aggitated with me, though I just think she had a lot of people who demand her attention. I have never had that problem, she's such a passionate speaker it's hard to get her attention sometimes. I feel like Colin Creevy in a way...weird Harry referance, but I feel that way lately. Maybe I'll start carrying around a camera ^_^ *teehee* won't that be laughable?

I still feel empty...that hollow feeling has yet to leave me. I've been clinging to Marc's things...I wish I had more of them. I have been hangign around with Pixie a lot, strange since we had been fighting for quite some time before then. She's changed for now, and I know if she acts up again I'll drop her once more til she comes around.

Matt moved back today, which was rather nice. Though I'm not sure how I really feel about it, there's an odd out of placeness to it all, I feel sort of lost in it. He's changed...a lot. I don't know if I like it, Matt used to be mine...now he has so many friends I feel like a fan in a crowd. I think I'll stop hanging around them. Besides, my feelings for Pete are flaring up again and getting away from all that might help.

Tomorrow...I'm going to wear Marc's jacket to school...maybe it will help me feel better..

Til another time.