I will try to fix you

It's going to be a very long night. Things have gotten pretty bad, my ulcer is acting up in a way that is hard to deal with, school is going VERY badly, and sadly it's because of me, and Colin well....Colin...*sigh*

School, we'll start with school. My career is going, nowhere. Yeah, no where. And I know it, so I have NO inspiration towards school. I keep trying and trying and trying, but no deal. I don't want to be here. WNCC is doing NOTHING for my art career, and I learn more from sitting home and sketching all day than I ever learn going to class. The only class I enjoy is piano. It's fun, it's easy, and I just get better every time I sit down. Dufau doesn't try to tell me what to do, and just reminds me how good I am. Dufau is probably the only thing positive in my life right now.

Colin...I'm at a loss. I'm not going to talk much about it on here, it's just too awkward. But, for tonight at least, we shall be sleeping in separate spaces. Perhaps...perhaps this is just a relapse...but perhaps this is the beginning of the end. As always, all good things must come to an end, and all areas have their rocky points...but...I...I worry that this will be where we have to split ways.

Here is hoping for some good news.

Goodnight.