I will try to fix you

How can I sum up my night? I went to a dance, with a corsaige (or however you spell the damned thing) bought by my mother's boyfriend. I wouldn't have worn it if it weren't for the evil looks I got from my mother. So I had to explain all night that no I didn't have a date but I did have a corsaige. Ya, that made me feel very very SPECIAL .

Then the entire night they play rap, nothing but rap! Why do people like rap? Please some one who is slave to this tell me what is so great about it? All it is is talking to a rhythm, I'll admit it I like some rap songs but I like some variety!

This was the numbers 5 slow songs and 2 techno, the rest were rap or hip-hop...so I was stuck with that all night long. My ass hurts.

To top my night off by the end of it I'm realizing that this dance was going to be like any other night...I dance with no guys, I dance with no one, and I end up depressed because of how disgusting I must be to every other human being...but to make it worse my "friend" Christy takes my money to get pictures with her friend, and then tells me to be happy because she is. I have to be happy simply because she is! So I being a fool go and try to get chocolate so I can cheer up for her, and what does she do? Looks at me, scowls, and leaves!

WHAT THE HELL! I don't know why but you can give everything to some one and you will get nothing in return except disdain. I hate people some times.

So, I went home, crying like a baby, and now I'm home, drinking tea, and I'm even thinking of not going to the Drama Party tomorrow...just because a certain some one who bitched me out yesterday and said only two things to me today (hello and get out of my way) might be there.

I guess I am just always going to be unpopular, unappreciated, and an overal social failure...I'm just not used to that idea yet.